tru beauty lies within
Tuesday February 4th, 2025
HELLO LOVERS.
Two weeks have flown and what have I done for Truaesthetica? Well. I've researched a lot of brands of skincare, drafted up menu offerings and business plans, and found out that starting over can be very expensive. I've brushed up my resume and sent it to job postings to try and drum up some good steady income to eventually fund my dreams. (They've probably been looking at this site, too. Hi future potential boss! This page used to show off my menu and talk about lash extension care, and if you're wondering why my lash business failed, you can thank my thumb and her arthritis for forcing me back into the workforce. <3)
In all of my research for restarting this business, I have tried to dig deep into my soul to figure out what it is that I TRUly want for my future. One of the aspects I'm most certain of is that the foundation I must build is <3 LOVE <3. And sure, February definitely focuses on love so that also may be a contributing factor. But LOVE is such an interesting concept. We say "I love you" to people as a way to express we care very deeply about them, and cherish their presence in our lives. That we hope for the very best in them and even though they are very flawed, as we all are, we hold them in fondness for their entire being.
As a child I was obsessed with hearts and love. Someone, probably my well meaning mother or grandma, told me that saying I love you was reserved for the most special people in our lives. I, being the determined child that I was, decided that if I loved people, that I should just tell them so that they would know. As a result, I liberally told my friends often that I loved them, and still share that generous expression today! How easy it is to care about people, their lives and their interests, and express that love, because in the end, I LOVE THEM. I've loved so many people in my life that I've recently decided I must simply be polyamiga. We may not be lovers in the the traditional sense, but I hold people deeply in my heart.
The downside though, to sharing so much love with everyone else, is that I didn't really learn to love myself until much much later in life. I spent my adolescence actually kind of tearing myself down, much of my twenties pandering myself to other's ideas of self worth, and once I hit OFFICIAL MIDDLE AGE, I had to look at myself, and wonder why in the hell I had spent like twenty years doing that??
Someone on the internet (my most favorite place in the world) once said "hot girls decide that they're hot" and it is absolutely true. Now anyone who has met me would know that I do not fit the standard definition of "hot" in the state of Utah. But once I decided that I was hot, none of that mattered. I learned to look at myself with kind eyes. Eyes that said "yes, and" instead of "if only." I noticed something.. it got easier to love myself when I was looking at me with my eyes. It also got easier to forget the voices in my head that came from the haters. I found self-love. I'm hot! And you are too!
If you don't believe me, I would hope that you would do me a favor and try it out for yourself. Look at yourself with outrageously kind eyes. This February, while you are used to sharing the love with everyone around you, I encourage you to remember to hold some of that love for yourself. Be absolutely generous with self compassion, and even give yourself the same benefit of the doubt that you give everyone else. If you're uncomfortable with that, I have good news. The more you practice, the easier it gets.
I love you. <3
HELLO LOVERS.
Two weeks have flown and what have I done for Truaesthetica? Well. I've researched a lot of brands of skincare, drafted up menu offerings and business plans, and found out that starting over can be very expensive. I've brushed up my resume and sent it to job postings to try and drum up some good steady income to eventually fund my dreams. (They've probably been looking at this site, too. Hi future potential boss! This page used to show off my menu and talk about lash extension care, and if you're wondering why my lash business failed, you can thank my thumb and her arthritis for forcing me back into the workforce. <3)
In all of my research for restarting this business, I have tried to dig deep into my soul to figure out what it is that I TRUly want for my future. One of the aspects I'm most certain of is that the foundation I must build is <3 LOVE <3. And sure, February definitely focuses on love so that also may be a contributing factor. But LOVE is such an interesting concept. We say "I love you" to people as a way to express we care very deeply about them, and cherish their presence in our lives. That we hope for the very best in them and even though they are very flawed, as we all are, we hold them in fondness for their entire being.
As a child I was obsessed with hearts and love. Someone, probably my well meaning mother or grandma, told me that saying I love you was reserved for the most special people in our lives. I, being the determined child that I was, decided that if I loved people, that I should just tell them so that they would know. As a result, I liberally told my friends often that I loved them, and still share that generous expression today! How easy it is to care about people, their lives and their interests, and express that love, because in the end, I LOVE THEM. I've loved so many people in my life that I've recently decided I must simply be polyamiga. We may not be lovers in the the traditional sense, but I hold people deeply in my heart.
The downside though, to sharing so much love with everyone else, is that I didn't really learn to love myself until much much later in life. I spent my adolescence actually kind of tearing myself down, much of my twenties pandering myself to other's ideas of self worth, and once I hit OFFICIAL MIDDLE AGE, I had to look at myself, and wonder why in the hell I had spent like twenty years doing that??
Someone on the internet (my most favorite place in the world) once said "hot girls decide that they're hot" and it is absolutely true. Now anyone who has met me would know that I do not fit the standard definition of "hot" in the state of Utah. But once I decided that I was hot, none of that mattered. I learned to look at myself with kind eyes. Eyes that said "yes, and" instead of "if only." I noticed something.. it got easier to love myself when I was looking at me with my eyes. It also got easier to forget the voices in my head that came from the haters. I found self-love. I'm hot! And you are too!
If you don't believe me, I would hope that you would do me a favor and try it out for yourself. Look at yourself with outrageously kind eyes. This February, while you are used to sharing the love with everyone around you, I encourage you to remember to hold some of that love for yourself. Be absolutely generous with self compassion, and even give yourself the same benefit of the doubt that you give everyone else. If you're uncomfortable with that, I have good news. The more you practice, the easier it gets.
I love you. <3
Tuesday January 21, 2025
TRUAESTHETICA IS EVOLVING
Have you ever been stuck in your life?
I started Truaesthetica nearly ten years ago and really truly wanted to build up women in their truest beauty. THEMSELVES!! However I got caught up in the business building, the impressing other people, the trying things THEIR WAY and I lost my vision. Childbirth in 2018 presented a huge obstacle of trying to find myself while facing the realities and traumas of my past and that really didn't do well mixing with my business. And we ALL KNOW what happened in 2020. All that to say, I am working really hard in this space to REJUVENATE TRUAESTHETICA into what I always wanted it to be.
I am working on something really special here for my Tru Beauties. I am publishing this page now, and with 89 days left until LAUNCH, I am using this space to stay accountable to my journey as sort of a restart journal. <3 KB